Post-Op Day 5

Today started early with Jake complaining of pain around 3:30.  After a little medicine he joined us in our bed laying on Daddy until 6:30 when Olivia got up.  All three kids came downstairs to eat breakfast together and it was a normal start to the day with everyone happy and playing.  Jake went back to school today and Luke guarded his brother from everyone letting them know they can't touch his brother, he has a hurt arm.  The medicine made Jake a little chatty and he was enjoying his first day back.  Jake was told by mommy that at any point if he wanted to go home he could but he was content to be back at school with his friends and stayed the whole day including his after school cooking class.  Unfortunately, Jake asked multiple times today about whether we would be using that tool again on his thumb.   As parents its very tough as we don't want to deceive Jake and be dishonest but we also don't want him to worry.   We assured him we weren't doing it yet but we would at some point later.   Later came, which was after Jake went to sleep and it was rough.  We had to disrupt an angelic looking kid fast asleep with the distractor tool to continue to lengthen his thumb.  The plan was to do this at night where Jake wouldn't know what we were doing and our hopes were that he would sleep through it.   Quickly, we turned the tool a full 360 degree rotation and Jake didn't even stir.  Right as we finished, Jake woke up crying hysterically complaining of pain.  It is torture to feel like you are inflicting pain on your child and we felt helpless watching him cry.  We each laid with Jake to comfort him and help him return to sleep.  It took both of us but he is back sleeping which is a huge relief.  How we continue this each day, we aren't sure as it emotionally is tough to endure. Only the hope that somehow this will be less painful with each passing day will help but it truly is something we will dread having to do each day.   We hope Jake can rest remaining in his bed all night but we have a feeling we will see him in the wee hours.